Realization or Rationalization
Either way, it's over.

Excerpt from tonight's conversation with Ron—

Me: I don't want to be seated anymore at a big table, the only person not speaking the language, and all I have to do is eat; once every 15-20 minutes or so someone feels bad for you and talks to you, and it makes me just wanna fucking correct their English… [trailing off]
Ron: Dude, it's better than eating alone.
Me: What's the difference?